What a year! Lately my life has become comparable to that experience you get on a roller coaster ride. After years of thinking I knew what things like ‘taking life as it comes’ and ‘learning to dance in the rain’ meant, I finally got some real rain. I realize that I was a bit shielded from the reality of life’s ups and downs. I recently found myself in situations that are too good they bypassed imaginations, as well as dead ends and situations that I didn’t think I could overcome. All of it can be overwhelming that at times the only goal was simply to breath.
Although I initially could not see through the overwhelm, it turned out not to be that bad. It is because I know cloudy and cold days that I appreciate sunny spring days better. I now appreciate the butterflies and nervousness of making a decision that will change my life, as well as remembering memories with a loved one I lost. I can now live with the pain of biting my tongue over the regret of saying something which is unnecessary and not nice. When you freely sail through life with no judgment or expectations, you get to appreciate it’s randomness and diversity, so much that expected and uniform goodness becomes unsettling. You begin to understand just how variety really is the spice of life.
You can not control everything. The tides keep changing and lemons may be thrown at you. But remember that regardless of how much shit you may step into, how you react depends on your mental processing of the situation. At the end of the day, your attitude towards life determines its quality as it relates to you. Live light. Things would be a lot easier if we didn’t carry all the unnecessary weight of low self-esteem, self-doubt, self-blame and regrets. Stop trying to control things. Live this life.
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